i woke up this morning with a migraine.

now you may be wondering, "oh, what's the big deal?" but truthfully, this is the third one this month. i've already gone to the doctor to get it all checked out and the diagnosis was just a mild case of migraines accompanied by aura warning signs.

now auras look like this this or this. it kinda hurts when i look at it to be honest.

although they're just mild (since they can be treated with tylenol), my doctor is making sure there really aren't any abnormalities in my head like aneurysms or tumors, so please don't be scared by reading this. i just really want you guys to know. i'll admit i'm a bit worried though, but i'll finally know what's what and have a "piece of mind" as my doctor said. so i'll be going in for an MRI this Saturday.

other than that i guess i'm also asking for help. i've been feeling stressed with a lot of things. a just a little before i really just wanted to cut myself off from people again. i stopped myself though, but i'm still stressed with relationships and school. all of which is probably added to the increased frequency of these migraines.

i'm doing my best to keep calm. breathing in and out. i know everyone has their own things right now and it's selfish of me to ask, but if i ever do see you guys please, lol i don't even know. i'd like to ask for more hugs, more laughs, and more get-togethers but with this busy schedule and clinicals coming up, i have no idea anymore.

my mom said i couldn't skip out on school with my migraines anymore and i'm kind of afraid at what more pushing will do to my head. there was this time during finals or midterms week where i was studying and ended up getting two migraines one after another.

i don't know what i'm asking for. i feel very weak right now emotionally and mentally and i feel i needed to vent this out coherently in writing than going on and on about it on the phone with just one person.

you're all very important to me. i miss you all. let's play rockband 2 soon, okay?

now after reading all this, i want to delete it. i sound like someone's saying /cry moar lol

1. One secret
2. One compliment
3. One non-compliment
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me
5. Lyrics to a song
6. A hint to who you are
7. Deny you ever posted

COPY AND PASTE WHAT'S ABOVE INTO A REPLY TO A PERSON BELOW!

Quick question, o'f-list! Anyone growing any Soul Eater muses and want to play around? I don't think I'd be able to play him pubically anywhere until finals are over and done with in two weeks.

So far I found a Soul in me. Play with him here if you'd like. He needs a lot of practice. orz.

Stolen from elsewhere.

Here's the plan: You comment with your username, and people will comment ANONYMOUSLY with things they love and cherish about you. I say anonymously because it makes the atmosphere lighter and more mysterious, kind of like a Secret Santa only with love and holiday cheer! People will wonder who these caring people are and appreciate the fact that they exist, not only the fact that they may be best friends with them.

Then find people you care about and have something nice to say to - even if you don't know them! - and leave them something that will make their heart feel a little warmer at night. This way, the love will go around and around and the magical spirit of the season can be cherished and appreciated by all.

Post your username (first name, if you don't have an LJ) here if you haven't already done so in part one and have fun!

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On my way to the Philippines! Leaving for the airport at 3PM later today and coming back at night on August 13th. Just a semi-hiatus just in case I get internet over there. If you can, please pray for a safe trip for our family. Two day flight and I'm gonna be all alskdjasldj when I land. Ergh.

With that! Take care everyone! & I'll see you later. ♥